> they think it’s a coincidence but I know it’s a mitochondrial disorder
Not saying you're wrong, just be very careful assuming you know more than your doctors
> My last episode of depression that landing in the hospital. What did they have to offer me? Electro shock treatment. No new tests, nothing.
Unfortunately there aren't that many tests for depression (I'm aware of none actually). Testing every fringe theory out there (which may well no longer be fringe in x time) is simply not feasible. Saying this as someone currently heavily medicated for depression.
> Not saying you're wrong, just be very careful assuming you know more than your d
This almost sounds like you are stereotyping me...
I do know more than my doctors. For one, they never even know what receptors most of the medication I was taking affected. But also I have my own genetics and I spent the last 15 years studying genetics and neuro-biology. I often fake out researchers telling them I have a PhD and I talk with them with no problem. And I am currently offering assistance to a research study at Stanford who are looking into the possible genetic roots of a specific neurological disorder.
So when I say I have a mitochondrial disorder that is causing multiple issues for me I know what I am talking about [1]. My mitochondrial haplotype is U [2]. I have rare gene changes in ND4 [3], ND4L, and MT-CYB [4} which are all linked to Mood Disorders and I have been treating them mostly successfully with high dose riboflavin [5] (this lowers glutamate [6] witch seems to be the mechanism that helps me most).
> Testing every fringe theory out there (which may well no longer be fringe in x time) is simply not feasible. Saying this as someone currently heavily medicated for depression.
My point is they are testing NOTHING. And these are not fringe theories. I am fighting for you and for my family who keeps wanting to end their life. By saying these are fringe theories you are playing into some stereotype (again). Take a look at pyridoxine for depression, or zinc or iron. These are not fringe theories, they are neglected theories because they would mean the end of treatment. I am not on zero meds but klonopin as needed. I have tried no less than 12 medications that "worked" but left me numb, over weight, and useless.
Please do not give up and let these doctors tell you what the only truth is. I am now working with a family with TRMPSS6 mutations that leave them all iron deficient and oral iron was not helping. They all have severe depression and fatigue and anemia. The doctors gave up on them. Turns out all they needed was to take their iron with citric acid.
Was expecting you to protest but really it wasn't my intention to stereotype you.
I have a Bsc Neuroscience myself but I guess not up to date enough. All I'd heard about Paxil / paroxetine was all negative yet for me it does make a little difference without any side effects at all. Not numb, not gaining weight, although I am curious about what you mean by "being useless"? I feel that way as well, but it could just be the depression. Modafinil helps.
Admittedly I still feel like total shite most days and cry and have very dark thoughts more than I'd like to admit.
Regarding insomnia I thought I knew all the treatments (and tried them, and they didn't work) until I was prescribed Trazodone. Did nothing for the depression but does give me 8-10 solid hours of sleep.
Klonopin I get myself on the black market and it certainly can kick your ass but don't see how that helps against depression since it's mostly an anxiolytic?
The only things that really help are illegal and I guess it just gets me more down in the long run, so round and round we go.
Will def check out your theories & references, thanks for that.
Being useless includes the depression, not really going away, or putting me in a zombie like state that makes me pretty unaware of what was going on around me. I better stay to be in when I was manic for sure, but nowhere to live indefinitely.
I highly recommend you get your genetics and start learning about it all.
There is such a huge, genetic risk and diversity that underpins mood disorders. It is the only way I found myself out of the mess I was in.
I really don’t have an issue with depression as much anymore as I do the mania and insomnia. And the psychosis. That’s where the Klonopin helps me. But lowering glutamate, for some people has been shown to improve stress induced depression.
As for depression, I suggest you look at inflammation an immune system as a regulator. And as for nutrients? I suggest checking your iron panel, B6, and zinc. These will help make the catecholamines implicated to be lower in depression.
>I made some decisions that sent my life in a downward spiral, I don't think those factors have anything to do with it
So the difference between psychological depression and biological depression are immense. Not to say that your genetics did not put you at more risk for depression after a stressful event.
It still sucks and I'm sorry. But if it was triggers by life choices I would suggest therapy.
At times I have rapid cycling Bipolar. There were sometimes I would be depressed and manic within four hour cycles. No life situation triggers it. Just noting the difference.
Damn, i just want to commend you on the immense amount of research you've done and your rightful confidence of the ailments effecting your body. I have been half heartedly studying my autoimmune disorder for a while but trying to study that while also devoting all of my time to physics degrees is very difficult. I did do some cancer research while my mother was dying but again, i could never approach the actual knowledge of the specialists she was seeing and she didn't want me to worry in the appointments to ask questions. I hope someday to have the incredible knowledge and sourcing that you have as well as the genetic information you've gathered.
Out of curiosity, how did you get your genetic information? Do you have a full set (i forget what they call that) or just a specific part relevant to your research? Thanks
Having watched my wife interact with the American medical system over the last 10 years for very similar symptoms, I have a much lower opinion of the amount of attention and care the average doctor is able to provide. There have been a few standout exceptions (her psychiatrist in particular) but overall there is little collaboration between the many specialists, and after billing our insurance for a battery of tests, there often little to no follow up.
As a physician I also fully support the not hot-at-all take that we do a huge disservice to these patients and a very poor job with psychiatric and constitutional symptoms/illnesses in general with “good care” being the exception, as you unfortunately experienced.
Not saying you're wrong, just be very careful assuming you know more than your doctors
> My last episode of depression that landing in the hospital. What did they have to offer me? Electro shock treatment. No new tests, nothing.
Unfortunately there aren't that many tests for depression (I'm aware of none actually). Testing every fringe theory out there (which may well no longer be fringe in x time) is simply not feasible. Saying this as someone currently heavily medicated for depression.